I Moved In

The moment I started living inside my heart

To you

who left my heart

as if it were a hotel room

to be used for while

till it was comfortable

And then left

at the first opportunity

without even

closing the door

Maybe for your fear

of looking behind

and see the mess

that you had made inside

I waited

for a long time

kept the room empty

and torn apart

Papers flying inside

with promises and lies

drawers full of your stuff

that you always tried to hide

towels on the floor

still carrying your scent

and your half-empty cups

all over the shelves

I spent months crying

looking at this room

abandoned

and betrayed.

I waited and waited

for you to come

to gently close the door

and properly say goodbye.

No one ever came.

Even though I gave us

a million chances

to clean up our mess

pay respect

and repair the broken stuff.

Until I realised

it had always been my task

to live inside this space

I was observing from outside

So I moved in.

Yes, I moved in.

And now I am inside

it doesn’t feel empty anymore!

This is my heart

my sacred room

and it’s my duty

to make it whole again

I am repainting the walls

changing the furniture

buying new flowers

and cleaning up the floor

And it doesn’t take long

I’ll make it even better

than it used to be before

I know how to repair

and restore!

To you

I gave my heart

my most sacred space

I can’t blame anyone

anymore

As I learnt to take care

of my own wounds

I forgive myself

and I forgive you

For, in the end

we are nothing

but the same

Two perfect mirrors

facing each other

only afraid

of our own reflections.

Now that it is all clear

I love you even more

and I let you go.